AGC (being backstabbed by 10 people at once with no idea i was being backstabbed)
I just checked my previous blogs (Lossng Weight) audience and I saw 300 of them were from France, I feel so bad to let it go knowing there was at least one person from France reading all of my posts. Ugghh, but alas, I need to move on. If you are that guy from France and you've come stumbling upon my new blog, BONJOUR!!! I'm sorry if I had to part ways with you. I just have to do it, I need to find myself again and then can we meet again (Wow, I'll be so good with dealing a break up in the future, hahaha).
Moving on to the post. I've posted that acronym before and if you came from my previous blog (the one stated above) you all know the story, but this time I'll make sure to explain my side and provide the whole story. If any of my "friends" happen to read this, I may look petty to you guys for not moving on from something that happened 이년 [2 years] ago, but there's one person from your group of friends that experiences anxiety and depression as well, ask her why I'm so petty that I can't get over it (hint: that person is a girl)
AGC is an acronym for Anti Gian Council (yes, Gian is my real name, I'm not going to reveal anymore information about my personal life for random people in the internet to snoop at) and they made this group around 9th grade and it existed for three months. I got to know about it on February 19, 2016 when my "friend" told me about it. She told me that she was a part of that group and she was so sorry that she never told me about it before and how she was blah blah blah. Obviously, I'm not that much angry towards her unlike the other members, but there's a hint of frustration there (there's going to be a lot of names involved in this story, so let's call her Just for the sake of convenience).
Just and Gab (another code name, I'm not going to reveal any of their real names just because of my pettiness) got angry at their group of friends for not paying attention to them. Because of all the emotion involved, they both cried. I comforted them telling them it was okay. Gab got a call from her parents telling her to go home, so she went home first then me, Just, Chris, and MK went to the school's field and kind of chilled.
Just told me how she is feeling so hurt that her friends seems to not care about her and etc, then bam! She told me about AGC, they told me that Chris created it and that a lot of people joined in. People like Ral, Mar, Jul, Sea, Jaq, and a lot more was in that group. I bawled into tears, the names of the people she said were the people I considered as my social circle and to find about the betrayal 7 months after its disbandment was kind of puzzling, I was angry that they did this behind my back, but I was more angry that none of them had the courage to tell me about it. Were they letting me stay in the dark all the time and not tell me about its existence? I felt like I was in some kind of a K-drama; at that moment I saw nothing but red. I wanted to strangle Chris, but he's kind of a mama's boy so her mother will probably just come to school and report me to the principal.
During those short moments of silence, I knew there was a reason why they are so distant and when I went to sit on my original seat during Music class they barred me and told me they saved the seat for Gab. All of those flashbacks of me eating my lunch alone, finding comfort from my earphones, reading books when everyone else is playing with their friends made me cry harder. We continued talking and I made them read a letter I created for our English class (we were tasked to write an essay the day before). I wrote how I'm so scared everyone is talking behind my back and that I have no real friends. Just said she was sorry, so I told her she owes me and she has to help me avenge myself. She agreed.
I went home, but Just's social circle (the same people AGC is consisted of) saw her and joined us so we all went home together. Once I was home I started posting tweets and comments that were passive aggressive, and Just told me that their group chat was in a state of panic with all the attacks I've been giving them (I made it look like I was hacking them, they were so scared, hahaha).
The night ended and not one person apologized, only Just. The next day happened but since it was a Saturday, I didn't get to see them; I emailed Gab and informed her about the group's existence, she didn't respond. February 21 comes and Ral's birthday was on that day and he told me he apologizes for his actions and will never do it again.
That leaves up to two people that apologized: Ral and Just.
February 22 came and since it was Monday, I got to see all of those traitor's faces again and Gab approached me and told me that she was sorry.
Three people apologized: Ral, Just, and Gab. Oh wait, I forgot about Chris. He apologized at the same Just apologized, so four.
The time went by and in Grade 10, at my current social circle, Ray (a new friend of mine) slipped up and told me he always hear people (Just's group of friends) talking about me before, even after AGC "allegedly disbanded". I got "closer" to all the people in AGC and they told me that they did it because they were irritated on how I always feel confident and stuff (well, congrats, you succeeded, now I'm an emotional wreck that seems to have no confidence whatsoever). The people in AGC also told me that they still talk behind my back and say stuff like how much I changed, how much I interact people and all of that. (They still talk behind my back but with good intentions, I don't know if that's good or bad, I'm going to label it as bad).
Grade 11 came (my current school level) and Aly (a mutual friend of mine and the AGC people) told me that she always hear Jul and most of her friends talk about my physical appearance, how much I spend on food, they were nitpicking on how much I eat before (this is why I can relate to Byun Mi-Yong from My Father is Strange).
At this point, only four apologized and the others still held their head high and tells me that they did it for my own good.
Aftermath:
Unlike in K-Dramas I still haven't gotten my happy ending and I'm still heartbroken. I still get nightmares, chills, and fear that people will never accept me for who I am up to this date, due to this I can never trust people easily. I hope I'll get my happy ending soon. The happy ending I deserved, the one where I get to laugh about their current situation and boast my good fortune to them, but life is unfair, so all I can do is hope.
I'm going to post some of the picture I had when I was conversing with them after I found out, to show you both sides of the stories, I'm going to post them in a different post. That will be the post after this one.
Just and Gab (another code name, I'm not going to reveal any of their real names just because of my pettiness) got angry at their group of friends for not paying attention to them. Because of all the emotion involved, they both cried. I comforted them telling them it was okay. Gab got a call from her parents telling her to go home, so she went home first then me, Just, Chris, and MK went to the school's field and kind of chilled.
Just told me how she is feeling so hurt that her friends seems to not care about her and etc, then bam! She told me about AGC, they told me that Chris created it and that a lot of people joined in. People like Ral, Mar, Jul, Sea, Jaq, and a lot more was in that group. I bawled into tears, the names of the people she said were the people I considered as my social circle and to find about the betrayal 7 months after its disbandment was kind of puzzling, I was angry that they did this behind my back, but I was more angry that none of them had the courage to tell me about it. Were they letting me stay in the dark all the time and not tell me about its existence? I felt like I was in some kind of a K-drama; at that moment I saw nothing but red. I wanted to strangle Chris, but he's kind of a mama's boy so her mother will probably just come to school and report me to the principal.
During those short moments of silence, I knew there was a reason why they are so distant and when I went to sit on my original seat during Music class they barred me and told me they saved the seat for Gab. All of those flashbacks of me eating my lunch alone, finding comfort from my earphones, reading books when everyone else is playing with their friends made me cry harder. We continued talking and I made them read a letter I created for our English class (we were tasked to write an essay the day before). I wrote how I'm so scared everyone is talking behind my back and that I have no real friends. Just said she was sorry, so I told her she owes me and she has to help me avenge myself. She agreed.
I went home, but Just's social circle (the same people AGC is consisted of) saw her and joined us so we all went home together. Once I was home I started posting tweets and comments that were passive aggressive, and Just told me that their group chat was in a state of panic with all the attacks I've been giving them (I made it look like I was hacking them, they were so scared, hahaha).
The night ended and not one person apologized, only Just. The next day happened but since it was a Saturday, I didn't get to see them; I emailed Gab and informed her about the group's existence, she didn't respond. February 21 comes and Ral's birthday was on that day and he told me he apologizes for his actions and will never do it again.
That leaves up to two people that apologized: Ral and Just.
February 22 came and since it was Monday, I got to see all of those traitor's faces again and Gab approached me and told me that she was sorry.
Three people apologized: Ral, Just, and Gab. Oh wait, I forgot about Chris. He apologized at the same Just apologized, so four.
The time went by and in Grade 10, at my current social circle, Ray (a new friend of mine) slipped up and told me he always hear people (Just's group of friends) talking about me before, even after AGC "allegedly disbanded". I got "closer" to all the people in AGC and they told me that they did it because they were irritated on how I always feel confident and stuff (well, congrats, you succeeded, now I'm an emotional wreck that seems to have no confidence whatsoever). The people in AGC also told me that they still talk behind my back and say stuff like how much I changed, how much I interact people and all of that. (They still talk behind my back but with good intentions, I don't know if that's good or bad, I'm going to label it as bad).
Grade 11 came (my current school level) and Aly (a mutual friend of mine and the AGC people) told me that she always hear Jul and most of her friends talk about my physical appearance, how much I spend on food, they were nitpicking on how much I eat before (this is why I can relate to Byun Mi-Yong from My Father is Strange).
At this point, only four apologized and the others still held their head high and tells me that they did it for my own good.
Aftermath:
Unlike in K-Dramas I still haven't gotten my happy ending and I'm still heartbroken. I still get nightmares, chills, and fear that people will never accept me for who I am up to this date, due to this I can never trust people easily. I hope I'll get my happy ending soon. The happy ending I deserved, the one where I get to laugh about their current situation and boast my good fortune to them, but life is unfair, so all I can do is hope.
I'm going to post some of the picture I had when I was conversing with them after I found out, to show you both sides of the stories, I'm going to post them in a different post. That will be the post after this one.
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