BEING ME

This is really the most cliche title there is in the world, but the title relates to me more than I relate to me sometimes (does that make sense? I don't know, hahaha). Anyway, my name is Angelo Psalm (not my real name) and I go by the Korean name Hwang Seo Yong [황서용]. It went through a lot of changes, at first I wanted to get a literal meaning of my name Angelo which means Angel (duh!) and then, I went through a Korean name converter, and then when I was studying my Korean textbook I saw the name 용 means dragon and if it was taken out of translation can mean Angel. 황 and 서 is the name that I kept from the Korean name converter, I'm weird, bear with me.

I've had several blogs, I tried maintaining all of them-none worked, this is the 7th blog I created and I plan to make this one work. The first one was Lossng Weight, which received a lot of audience from around the world, then a bunch of blogs with different content (Korean culture, me writing stories, what goes on in my life, etc.) came. Lossng Weight got its name because I was so frantic that day in losing weight and I just created that blog so I can feel inspired and I can post pictures of my weight loss, I tried changing it Losing Weight, but my audience declined, so I changed it back to Lossng Weight.

Moving on, I suffer from anxiety and depression, yay (here comes someone joining the bandwagon [did I use the term correctly? whatever]). It's true though I've had several traumatic experiences that made me experience several identity crisis, I used to be suicidal (edit 10/12/17 I am suicidal again) and a lot of things that comes with depression and anxiety, you know the basic. If you must ask, I can relate my experience with my mental disorder with the K-Drama named 치즈인더트랩 [Cheese in the Trap] and 아버지가 이상해 [My Father is Strange]. I can relate most to Hong Seol and Byun Mi-Young.

More about me: I never let go of grudges, probably the reason why I'm still suffering mental disorders. Like 진짜 [Really] (Because of the all the studying in Korean, I can express myself in Korean better now) I can still remember the time my father smashed my head to our coffee glass table or how my classmates backstabbed me when I needed them the most. It hurts, but I tend to use all of this hate as my motivation. I mean, I can write a lot of stuff on my blog, I'm studying Korean to one up them, I'm more responsible (I hate bragging btw, but I can't help it.)  

I kept on talking about how much of a Koreaboo I am, so I'll tell you guys my K-Pop idol stans, for the girls, I only have two. The number one is 이엑스아이디 EXID (Exceed in Dreaming). I met them because of BTS and how most kpop idols kept dancing to Up and Down. I feel in love with them, and I always love artists that met a little obstacle before they reach their dreams that's why I'm head over heels over them. You guys will probably see how much I love them with all of the EXID posts I'll post soon. The second girl group is the Nation's Girl Group 소녀시대 Girls's Generation. Like EXID they had their own obstacles, they are literally the first group of the second generation to receive hardships, that's why they're my number one before, but EXID came. I'm sorry Sunny-ssi.

What to expect in my blog?

I realized what I did wrong with all of my previous blogs before, I created so many of them specializing in different hobbies of mine that it became hard for me to manage on my own. I also tried to confide myself in a schedule even though my busy schedule won't allow it. I'm going to get rid all of that, all of those standards I expected myself to follow before. Of course, granted I'll make sure that I'm going to make this blog active but not like before that I won't sleep a wink and try to come up with a blog post even though I feel uninspired, I'll only write a blog post when I'm inspired.

Oh btw, I'm Filipino. There can be times when people from other continents not to relate to my post. 죄송합니다 [Sorry] I'll say it now. Also, this blog will be a melting pot of all the things I like, hate, or what happens in my life, expect a lot of K-Pop and Weight Loss diaries.

That's all there is for now, I'll probably post my second post today since I'm feeling inspired.

[edit 10/12/17:I just created a Facebook page, make sure you like it!!!]





P.S (12-06-17) I had to delete my other blog because there are people who have uncovered it. I will not back down from the fight but that doesn't mean I am not fearful of the consequences that might follow after.